He hates it dying and the coming back HERE. He rather he just stayed dead. Either not existing or getting to the afterlife. He is really tired of scrapping by and working hard and working for gods. He has been trapped in a cave for nearly a year and all he really wants more than anything is to see the sun and travel again. Traveling was a big part of his life before and not having it for so long makes him anxious and unhappy.
Knowing his death hurt so many people is also...a thing. He really came to care about a lot of people and letting them down with his death just makes him SO SORRY. His death is enough to really hurt people and he knows it. He didn't want to cause so much unhappiness and he did. He hurt the ones he loved most. He spent so much time wanting to protect himself from the flaws of caring about people and now he wishes he protected THOSE people from those flaws even if it meant making himself unhappy.
He misses the life he had terribly. He feels lonely even with several of his friends around. He feels he can't be close to his best friend Allen because of what happened and how things are now. Like he doesn't belong in the picture. His 'family' that was Cepheus are all gone and he's GLAD they're alive but also. It's SO HARD for him to not have them. He doesn't have Claude to be an overly kind idiot. He doesn't have Yayoi to gossip with. He doesn't have Syaoran to dote on. And he doesn't have Kon to tsun at and lean on when things are bad. And he def does not have a Cepheus cuddle pile anymore or the Tiara of Stupid Feelings to inflict on people.
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Knowing his death hurt so many people is also...a thing. He really came to care about a lot of people and letting them down with his death just makes him SO SORRY. His death is enough to really hurt people and he knows it. He didn't want to cause so much unhappiness and he did. He hurt the ones he loved most. He spent so much time wanting to protect himself from the flaws of caring about people and now he wishes he protected THOSE people from those flaws even if it meant making himself unhappy.
He misses the life he had terribly. He feels lonely even with several of his friends around. He feels he can't be close to his best friend Allen because of what happened and how things are now. Like he doesn't belong in the picture. His 'family' that was Cepheus are all gone and he's GLAD they're alive but also. It's SO HARD for him to not have them. He doesn't have Claude to be an overly kind idiot. He doesn't have Yayoi to gossip with. He doesn't have Syaoran to dote on. And he doesn't have Kon to tsun at and lean on when things are bad. And he def does not have a Cepheus cuddle pile anymore or the Tiara of Stupid Feelings to inflict on people.
BEING DEAD IS BALLS
What are Sharks' future hopes?